This morning I went to my see my doc, Eric, he made me feel so important.....we spent almost 2 hours talking about my disease and answering all my questions about treatment. I know this time will be a great success! His whole team is so supportive and really easy to talk to.....I feel very blessed to have found them.
He walked in with this "starter kit" of information, first aid kit, ice pack, more information, contact numbers (including his personal cell phone) and went through every item and explained it all to me. Then he came in with the medication and we went over all the instructions and got the first injection all ready for me to self administer at the comfort and privacy of my home. A million emotions started flooding my head and body.....this is it....this is really about to happen. I have failed treatment twice before, but this time - I have faith - It will work!
I drove straight home and started going over all the material again because - through all the emotion - I had forgotten everything he said :) I waited for my husband to come home to start with my first injection. We sat on the bed and, I showed him everything and I mean everything - read through all the materials, got my first dose out and psyched myself up for the first injection. Again, I forgot everything......I had to look through the step by step instructions again.....I had also forgotten that the doctor had already prepared that first injection for me....so I immediately pushed the syringe up to release any air bubbles, like I knew what I was doing, and shot the whole dose out onto the bed! I wanted to just start crying but instead my husband I started to laugh!!! About $750.00 worth of Pegasys Interferon wasted!! He went over to the fridge like it was no big deal and got another dose out for me and we read AGAIN through the instructions together...this time we had we had the prep right!
He had already arranged for everything and everyone outside of our bedroom to be taken care of so all I had to do was rest. It probably took me about 3 minutes to inject myself but it seemed like I was sitting there for 30 minutes with the needle an inch away from my skin. Again psyching myself up for this 48 week long journey. And then I just took a deep breath and...did it!
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