I love my mornings.....each morning or should I say once the daylight shines through the windows..... Jaxon, my grandson, wakes up and plays for a few minutes in his bed. He starts to talk louder and louder and eventually you will hear "Grandma" "Grandma" "I'm ready!"
I will go in his room and he is standing in his bed with his arms open wide and with a huge smile on his face he say's "It's a beautiful day!" He ALWAYS brings a smile to my face! He is my rock through this treatment....it is moments like these that keep me moving forward. Lord knows there are many moments that try to hold me back.
One of those "moments", if you will, is the struggle I am having with the doctors. I now have 3.
1. My Family doctor
2. My Liver doctor
3. My Psychologist - a must have with the side effects!!
All 3 seem to think I need to be on different medication for some of the different side effects.
I wish I could sit all three of them down in a room together so they can all be on the same page!
Ultimately here's what happens......
I see my 1. doc for a check-up, he asks how treatment is going. I tell him, he prescribes me a new medication and sets me up with doc 3. I meet with her the next day and she recommends a different prescription to doctor 1. - THEN she goes on vacation for 10 days. Doctor 1. has questions of doc 3, but can't ask her due to her trip but STILL has not returned my call inquiring about the medication he wanted to put me on. So here I sit on the meds that neither of them think is the right one. Now doc 2. wants to add medication to my current 9 pills a day, but may not need to if Doc 1 & 3 get on the same page. Until then.......here I sit.......dealing with the side effects. Trouble focusing, trouble concentrating, nausea (oh yeah...there's another pill for that!), headaches (and another one for that), fatigue, depression, confusion, FRUSTRATION!
The one thing I am sure of; the one thing I can count on to move me forward in my treatment today.....is that "it's a beautiful day!"
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