So many things going through my head, my heart, my soul...............I have lived my entire life with this disease.......I try to explain it like this:
It's like having a massive growth on your face - there for all to see, you live with the complications all your life, you get used to the pain and side effects of the growth. Sometimes, even though others know it's there....you still try to put it out of your mind. Inadvertently it just becomes part of your life; part of who you are; your identity. You learn to accept it, you start to expect the pain and it is no surprise when it takes YOU over. And then all of a sudden...............you wake up, look into the mirror and it is gone. What do you do? How do you live? NOW - who are you?
Believe me.......I am so grateful! GOD has blessed me with so many things....family, friends, love, acceptance, passion, belief, honor, strength, faith and now.......a disease free liver! I wonder, sometimes, why.........why has he given me this second chance - or should I say....third, or fourth, or maybe even 5th. All I know is HE has a plan for me and I want to live that plan!
I was talking with Doc 3 on Wednesday, she asked me the question..."So what is next for Lori?" After a big, long moment of silence - I simply sighed and said "I don't know" I do know that I must remain on treatment......I do know that I want to make a difference in the lives of others.....I do know that there are so many people out there with this disease that are scared, hurting and confused. After discussing all this, she mentioned participating in a support group. I would have the opportunity to give others, like me, hope. I like that!
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